Welcome to my world

In this day and age, I am lucky that I know how to work an iPod. I figured it was time I started a blog, or as I like to think of it, an online journal. I will be using this to vent, share stories, experiences, and just free my mind. I used to write a lot, and now that I am so busy, I never do. I am on my laptop a lot, and this is something I can do easily.

Well .. what to write in my first post? I am still recovering from sinus surgery I had on March 2nd. It went well, and my sinuses feel great - my only complaint is my muscles and body! The anesthesia made me feel like I got hit by a truck. I can not even describe the pain. My butt cheeks hurt! My pelvis bones hurt - my muscles in my neck, chest, arms .. everything. It is from the drug that they use to relax the muscles during surgery. YIKES - I wish this didn't happen! Last time I had sinus surgery (September 29, 2009) my muscles in my chest hurt, but that was it. Not my WHOLE body! Thank goodness for painkillers!

Brianna is going to be 2 years old in 2 months. I don't know where the time is going. She is such a bundle of never ending joy. When I am down or overwhelmed with CF crap, I just look at her and my heart melts. She makes my life perfect. I just wish I felt good enough to be the kind of mother I always wanted to be - always doing something fun for/with her, having energy all the time .. etc. These last 2 years have been HARD - I have been on IV all the time, since I had Brianna. I don't know why my disease is progressing so quickly, but hopefully there are some new medicines on the way that will help me out so I can live my life, with my family, to the fullest : )